Always A Goal

I swear: if I'm not working toward something, I'm moving backward.

Which is probably why I always have some strange goal sitting in front of me, and torturing myself much to the dismay of my friends and family. 

Most recently it was the miserable "No Drink November." Yes, for the entire past month I gave up soda and booze. Soda because I figure if I can not drink it for a month, I'll give it up altogether. I have addictions to caffeine and sugar and if I can just give up that one beverage forever I will be one step closer to being healthy. 

Damn does it taste good though.

The booze I gave up because I realized that it is truly a part of everything I do. And coming from a family of alcoholics I need to know that I can give it up. 

When I was 12 or 13 my dad sat me down and had the discussion with me about drinking. I'm not exactly sure how it was brought up, but I will never forget the statement: "We come from a family full of alcoholism. And it is a disease. I don't care if you drink. You can even drink a lot if you wish. God knows your mother and I do... But you always need to know your limits, and always be able to walk away."

So I haven't had a drop in 29 days. And as much as I hate to admit it: I feel a whole hell of a lot better than when I started. Minus the first week which was complete detox and miserable.

I had the shakes. Truth.

So "No Drink November" ends Friday evening, and my "365 of Sweat" begins Saturday morning. Like I said, if I'm not working toward something, I'm moving backward.

Who the fuck knows what I'll come up with after this one.